so...............................................................

you know, sometimes you have to go to great lengths for a sabbatical from everything. your life, love life, academic studies, being in the same roof with parents practically lecturing you every single day etc. for me, it was a trip to malaysia. went there, had a blast, came home, and trouble comes S.M.A.C.K in the face. well, at least it gave me a few hours of rest before it did. how thoughtful.

now, im whom you call a negotiator, a peacemaker, the go-to person when the rest of the world seems to be against you, a temporary shelter, an observant idiot who does nothing but stare from a distance, a crowd pleaser, an occasional oracle. all in all, im not what you call an ideal friend but i try to make ends meet.

and frankly, im highly doubtful if others are doing the same. now, before we start pointing fingers at other people, look at your hand. there might be one finger, usually the index, pointing at everyone else, but theres four more pointing the opposite direction. at ourselves.

are we making an effort too? do we try? question ourselves why is it that others view us that way. why is it that she blames me? why is it she picks on me and not others? other people never said so, she's the only one. does it make her instantly at fault? search within yourselves. did you make an effort? did you contributed to her thinking that way? or lack thereof? did she misunderstood you? or did you misunderstood her?

misunderstandings do occur, all the time in fact. and the sad thing. it has been going on for too long to return to what it was. its too late. even saying sorry does not quite cut it anymore.

the reality of it all is that,
we're no longer in your future.
then again, were we ever?