i've been doing lots of things i would normally never do.. not in a negative context but ya noe, things that i thought off but never did either for a long while or never at all..

let me list them down shall i?

1) i studied!! i mean, ya noe, normal for people taking major exams but not to me. heck i didnt study for psle. doesnt work that way in sec sch. yes, sarah had been delusional all this while. well, what can i say? ignorance was bliss.
2) i think i finally moved on as a person. i think im ready for the next phase in my life. finally.
3) i've been watching the world cup. surprise, surprise. was never a futsal fan but hey, some of the players are like really cute. i still dun like england tho. i mean the guys. dont even talk to me about skills. im completely clueless.
4) i've been to the library more often as well as the cinema. whoops. cant. resist. the. big. cinema. screen.
5) i watched x-men 3 ALONE. *gasp* aiyer.. not that badlah actually. i kinda laughed to myself at times until like these guys next to me were looking at me strangely. if only i could ask them to shut up more during the movie. but i was lonely. even if smatterings of noisy inconsiderate people bug me, i'll just have to put up with it. heck, if i were to have friends with me, i'd be noisier.
6) i feel that artem or blake should be in the finals instead of jamile for 'so you think you can dance'. and i hate that noisy bitch of a judge who keeps going 'woooo...'. irritating shit. i know! and i dont even like to dance. im born with two left feet, you see. sad huh? but i used to be good in malay dance, i think, during primary school. i can still remembered the dance teacher's name. it was mdm mariam. hahax.. well, the club closed down after 3-4 months so yea.. there goes my only hope of twirling around. ouh hold on. didnt i dance like a hooker during p5 camp. *reminiscing* good days. good days. hahahahax...
7) i am addicted to the scrubs soundtrack.. jeremy kay!!! all thanks to dyindh!
8) i asked fir to teach me amaths.. well, thats cause faizal was being so unhelpful.. huh.. mentah2 pegi jc.. ya noe, using faizal as an example, growing up does not make you humble. more like a hypocrite. or an ingrate. depends on how you view the situation.
9) i've finally made up my mind on where to go after secondary school. im taking mass comm at tp. *takes a great sigh of relief*. no turning back now. actually, theres still time to think it through but nah, saves me the trouble of going to the kitchen to get paracetamol. besides, im achlouphobic remember. not to fond of the dark thank you very much.
10) im starting to write pop songs. yucks. i thought of maybe leaning towards country or jazz, but somehow i ended up writing some pop song. here, i'll show you and umm, comment on it alright?


Crystal Clear

Dear You,
There is no point, for me, to avoid unevitable,
Because you, already know how i feel,
But you, choose to believe otherwise,
Cause you, choose to believe all her lies.

Cant you see what you’re doing?
Or continue to be blinded.
Cant you see what she’s doing,
Or just be undermined.

I cant hate you, but i cant love you either,
Well isnt this a catch 22,
I’ll take the blame,
Yea, I’ll take the fall for my wrongdoings.

But im not the only one,
You played a part too,
Insignificant,
I dont care,
I’ve made my point,
Two words,
Crystal.
Clear.



Initial reaction after vomiting the words: ew.. this sounds like a pop song. Needs a second draft when mental block is lifted. Preferbly after olevels. Countdown 3 months and a week. Good luck.
LETS GET LIFTED! HIGH, HIGH, HIGH...

just tell me what you think of it. be gentle kays? its my first time. ouhk, that sounded wrong.........................


*makes a face*