helloo darlings..
now, i marvel at the fact that even though people talk behind my back, at least they have the decency to not say it to my face and put me down unless of course, i really deserved it. i actually ask my friends what they think of me. most of the time, they have nothing against me, or so they say, but i tend to believe them anyway the reason being that they are my friends.
however, what gets on my nerves are people who do say horrible things to me right in my face when in the first place they dont even know me and yet think that they have the right to judge me. now, i find that insulting. not because of what they say but their atrocious behaviour.
however, instead of feeling all angry at the undeserved attention, im just frustrated that i could not tell the person off. yes darlings, getting into arguments is my favourite pastime. what can i say? its in the blood.
speaking of blood, my latest obsession is with the supernatural, namely vampires. i find them bloody sexy. no seriously. well, at least anne rice's perception of how vampires could be. mysterious, slightly eccentric and so bloody (no pun intended) sexy. a gurl like me cant help having fantasies about that kind of vampires. watch the movie 'queen of the damned' if you cant read the real thing. either way, it doesnt matter.
so moving on to the chapter where i vent about my life and the current events that are happening.
tonight, just now i mean, my family went to hajah maimunah restaurant to celebrate Mother's Day. food was alright, place was friggin' cold. too bad nuriman told me about his modelling gig a tad too late or i could have postpone the eating out to saturday or something. the rest met up just now and went to the expo. will resort to asking him how it was on monday.
hope that he would not turn 'celebritrish' on me or i would have to smack him right across the face.
LOST rocks. OPRAH rocks. BARRY MANILOW rocks. B & W BACKGROUNDS rocks. MASQUERADE rocks. SUMMER BY KENZO rocks.
i need to buy or rent more books. or i will rot at home or die of boredom, whichever comes first. updating and reupdating my friendster profile bores me. going out bores me. studying bores me (mye is over.. but the studying is never going to stop till the end of the year. im going to die a slow death). amaths tuition pop quizes makes me wanna barf, having to sit through lengthy lectures makes me sleep, unless if its my mom doing the lecturing, then i would pretend that i was ally macbeal or J.D from scrubs and strangle her. then again i would not want to see naked babies dancing in my office. thats just plain freaky.
i have done the most embarrasing thing tonight, and whats more it was my mother, my own flesh and blood, who forced me to keep a lookout while she and my auntie did it. NOT THAT 'IT'. now thats just plain disgusting.
i need to go to the pool more. nothing much change since the renovation, but i think i should swim more. i tink im losing my touch. last tuesday, me and sham 'worked out' at the gym at the public pool. it was huge!! and friggin' cold but since i was sweating like a pig (literally!), did not noticed much. but it was fun. went swimming afterwards, only managed 2 laps. man, i used to do 20 during each trip. i should visit the pool alone. going with sham distracts me. no, im not a lesbian or have lesbian fantasies, but going with friends would just make you do silly things together. its fun, gotta admit that.
my new found talent is editing pictures. im not saying that i've become a professional or anything. just an amateur. even sham says that my works was not bad. though she didnt give me any constructive advice either. dang..
abang yan's getting so freaking fat and gravity is taking a toll on abang taufeeq's face. he looks tired all the time. mak cah's the naggy person that she is, nothing has changed with her. izad, omg, is getting so friggin rude, but he's still cute to me. reminds me of well, me? hahahax.. kelkel, aiyah, i hate him now.. kicks me like nobody's business, cant bloody kick him back.. but i got my retribution. he was climbing the sofa and was reaching for something from the table behind and fell down, overturning the chair. nigaria falls happen, of course, but his mom just said 'you deserve it'.. lurv it!
dang.. im such a cruel bitch.
abg ridhwan, well we're keeping in touch finally. but he's freaking weirdlah now. hanyut tu hanyut but what can i say, he's still my 'big brother', we still argue like we did 5-9 years ago. dang.. i miss him.
so, i have no idea what to write anymore, but am going to sign of with a saying from... from somewherelah..
"No matter how hard you try to fight it, you'll fall and its as SCARY as hell. Except, if there's an upside to freefalling, is the chance you give your friends to catch you :)"
Ouhk, as per normal, Top 5 songs this week:
- Mandy by Barry Manilow
- Cell Block Tango by Chicago OST
- Trouble by Elvis Presley
- Let's Get lifted by John Legend
- The last part of My Humps file Hakim sent me
so thats it for now.. toodles!
basically, a narcissis.