career guidance week at temasek seccondary school is such a waste of time.. and that website is so nonsensical.. i can live with being a speech therapist but a tax officer?? c'mon man.. you've just got to be kidding me.. i'd rather eat cows eyes with bile gravy than to be a tax officer.. i'd die of boredom.. i'd be such a boring person that if anyone were to talk to me, they'd be so turned off after only a few seconds.. and no, i'm not being dramatic! it happens..
well anyway, just now was fun though.. although seriously uneducational and unchallenging.. i miss the craziness and lame stuff me and alia used to do.. i dont care what people think, hell, sometimes i irritate others too.. im not saying i dont like hanging out with my usual friends but sometimes, one do feel suffocated being with the same old people, every single day.. and i dont think i need to explain myself on this matter, so there.
im not a serious kind of person, or the overly bitchy sort.. i do have my moments.. sometimes i'd like to let loose and get drunk on plain highness.. the rush of adrenaline felt so darn good just now.. been so uptight and tensed up lately.. was with alia, farahyn and a few others juz now, making an utter fool out of myself at the paya lebar air base, grinned at the teachers who gave us glares for our improper behaviors, being absolutely disgusting with acts of lesbianity with alia and got scared out of our wits when hanafi made ghostly sounds at the small dark room and just totally had a ball of a time.. i miss all of those things.. however,i realised that i have to grow up someday and im gonna miss those days dearly..
i have not decided on what i really want to be when i grow up, as incredulous as it sounds consider all the talks and visits that had been shoved at us this week. im still trying to figure out where i should go and what path is more suitable for me.. that was how unproductive the career convention thing at Suntec was.. if you ask me, i thought it was inapproprite and does not interest me at all.. it was all focused on business and management, engineering and promotion of overseas universities and its propects. thats totally depressing as i had no interest whatsoever in these areas.. except aerospace engineering but its only a notion, not a full blown passion like i have for communications and infocom.. and no, not even the gorgeous guys from the civil defence could interest me.. well until i figured out what im going to be, i'll just take the time to focus on my studies and training (only a month left till competition).. toodles darlings..
basically, a narcissis.