hello darlings..

JIHAD!!!
...was the topic of discussion for today. yup.. you heard me right.. no more 'problems faced by teenagers these days such as sex and drugs'. instead 'reflect on why the Muslim community today are outdated socially, politically and intellectually.. why are we being look down upon by the Europeans'.. why i wonder. frankly speaking, i dont feel any of the angst that Muslims all around the world have about the pictures of my prophet, the one person on earth that God trully loved. living in Singapore, im cocooned in my own little world of teenage problems, exams anxiety and social life that news happening around the world does not effect me, not even the slightest bit. i feel like i'm sheltered from all the anger, pain and resentment.. sheltered from all the suffering, frustration.. sheltered from reality..

hold on for just one moment. isnt that something bad?! i used to wonder about it but have not really thought it through. why do i let myself live a life of constant denial? why do i not wonder why things are the way they are, the way they were and the way they're going to be? was i afraid? and why the asking of questions now? why? why? why???

on a lighter note: omg, before i get a friggin headache, let me talk about my life for a while yea? i hate thinking too much, esp when i have my contacts on. somehow they interfere with my train of thought, however weird that sounds. but thats just me. so, only two more days to !smash'd and finally i know what to do with my hair. im doing what Kim (antm) did for her 40's pin-up girl photo shoot. i finally know what im going for. the look that i picked out wasn't boho after all.. it was retro/classic. hahax.. silly me. so anyway, major tests almost over. ALMOST. have bml kertas 2 (higher malay paper 2) test tomorrow, three tests on monday and bio on thurs. hahax.. im just surprise that im not freaking out right now. or mayb it hasnt sink in yet.

lethargicness + usual blurness + contacts = brain not functioning properly ..

ridiculous and utter rubbish. naturally me.

so, i have finally (!!) applied for singnet broadband/ wireless so 3 cheers for me for finally catching up with the 'wonders' of technology. sad. so promises, promises, promises. somebody has to finish her story on senoritas, somebody still owe me lots of money and ouh! isya was such a dearie when she helped this nenek (grandmother) carry up her groceries to her house the other day. irrelevant, i know.. but this blog revolves around the concept of irrelevance anyway. might as well live up to its name!!

so, a song adinda had kindly (!!) got me addicted to recently:

Hopelessly Devoted To You
by Olivia Newton John

Guess mine is not the first heart broken,
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know,
There's just no gettin' over you

I'm just a fool who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But baby can't you see,
There's nothin' else for me to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide,
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm not in my head,
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you,
Hopelessly devoted to you

My head is saying "fool, forget him",
My heart is saying "don't let go"
Hold on to the end,
That's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide,
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm not in my head,
Hopelessly devoted to you..


YEA RIGHT!!!
gawd, im such a mood spoiler. whoops?