hey darlings..

less than 5hours to go til !smash'd tonight.. this is the first time in years i'll be going as part of the audience and not a performer. feels strange but very exciting at the same time. you could not believe how nice, and heavy the plagues are this year.. hahax.. i dont think you want to know that. well, couldn't say i didnt try my best. good luck to dinda n 'infrared'.. uday and tiara!!! you guys are very good so i'd be shocked if you guys do not win..

so anyway, guess what? i've made it to morning digest!! my partner is dayah and we're talking about phobias.. although this topic has no direct link to the concept of resilience, mr tan still put our names down for morning digest.. said that we had great chemistry together. wow.. what a compliment coming from a teacher who emphasizes on an alevel education instead of olevel. sheesh..

training was horrible yesterday. can literally vomit blood. my blisters were bleedinglah.. my palms are so raw now.. and i hate jerry. my resentment and hate for jerry surpasses my hate for anything else.. not only is he bias, he had the cheek to embarress me in front of everybody else.. thats the one thing that really gets on my nerves.. you have cross the line asshole.. yea, you're coaching us but you are no boss of me.. im only putting up with you coz i want to win this as badly as everyone else on the team..after april competitions, you can fucking go to hell for all i fucking care. and if you think that from that shouting will result in me respecting you, think again.. because over my dead body will i fucking respect you.. coz you dun fucking deserve it, you bloody faggot..

got an idea of how much i hate him now? good.