hey. its been a while huh?
all my memories are still here. burried in archives. you know, i always love it here. i could write the longest entries that dont seem to end and everbobody didnt use to mind it. i was carefree, i was vociferous, i was innocent, i was me. and now, at 18, im a liar, a procrastinator, a wanderer. im not entirely sure if i am the slightest bit wiser from the 2 years that had passed since i last wrote an entry for this blog. all that i have now are the mistakes, the regrets and somewhere along the way, the lessons i had learnt. maybe thats all i meant to have anyway.
well, i have always been a dreamer. i dreamt about being in love, having someone to brush their fingers through my hair, having someone's name to scribble on my hands, on pages of textbooks, on every available surface, having a reason to call someone at night just to ask how their day had been, having the perfect first date eating ice cream at swensons, to stroll with at the beach, to rub noses with or cuddle or tickle or swim with, reading on the bench at the park with my head on his lap (yes, very notting hill, i know) to try out salsa classes with, to ride on horseback with, having someone there with a wet towel when im down with a fever, someone to travel with, try escargots and rattattoui with.
yes, i am a romantic, a hopeless romantic. im not looking for a boyfriend, im looking for someone a little more... permanent.
to commemorate the 101st entry, im here to tell you that i am moving my nonsensical sdfnefnskdnmfv(mutterings) elsewhere. so zis blog iz non-ezistentz nowz. we're playing hide and seek. see if you can find me. see ya!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006/1:25 am
Tuesday, December 05, 2006/11:54 pm
im so like over that now.
date: 5th December 2006what i did today;movie: Saw I & Saw II, back to backbook: If you could see me now by cecelia ahernwasnt actually expecting much to happen today. thought i would just enjoy the company of a book and a cuppa coffee. well, that sure didnt happen! im pissed because i was rudely woken up in the effing morning by effing roof drilling right above my effing head. it so doesnt pay to live on the last floor, albeit the gorgeous scenery from up here. but seriously. its so inconsiderate of the contractors. at least warn us or put up notices in the lift or something! and put the effing 'no peeing' sign somewhere else. jeez. like who pisses in the lift anymore? worst come to the worst, get CCTV cameras and and threaten to put the offending videos on youtube or something.lesson of the day: must go out tomorrow to avoid stupid drilling noises.if you must know how saw I & II was, lets just say it was not all i've expected. to illustrate my point;my first impression of the movies: horror flick which would make me stay up all night replaying the gory scenes inside my head.the impression i got after watching the movies: greatest thriller/horror movies ever. it challenges you physically and mentally. physically because i keep having to grip the pillow ever so tightly till my knuckles were literally white. mentally because i keep having to figure out Jigsaw's/John's/killer's motive for putting the victims in the game. needless to say, i cant wait for saw III to come out. to hell with the m-18 rating, theres so many ways of getting one's hands on movies. well, in my case, it requires adam to go to johor first. lol.im going to miss that horrid old bugger. he prank called me on monday night. i so didnt fall for it of course. totally humoured him throughtout the conversation. honey, who the heck does surveys at 11pm? and know your body shop products before advertising them. and lastly, there is no effing way you can bullshit to a bullshitter.i need an imaginary friend. ouhkay. maybe not. ive got too many now anyway. phew. i wonder how i manage. lol.i've lost my abah's 'quran' cd. shit. ive been searching everywhere for it. i hope i didnt send it by accident to the rental shop. must check again.i should move on. yeah alright. im moving on. if only it was that simple. but its something that i should do. preach what i practice and keep my chin up. i want to learn how to crump! somebody, anybody! teach me!
Monday, December 04, 2006/1:15 am
the long-awaited photos
in no chronological sequence whatsoever, i present to you my graduation night/day 2006, an event worth remembering for the rest of my life. enjoy =)
thats me of course. i look like i cant stand straight. lol. i kind of prefer my studio shots. too bad i could only take 2 home in a cd with me. i'll post the studio picture up one day.
dont you just love this picture. by the way the 'grafitti' in the background reads "not yours to rule ours!".. whatever that means. the actual graffiti background we wanted to pose with was "my body is a machine". the place was too far, we didnt have much time to get to school and it was going to pour. well, it actually did when we were taking another shot. didnt want to put it up because it looked like i was scandaling with nuriman. yikes.
now this is more like it. from the left to the right we have:
nani, the hot mama in a bareback dress,
zia looking nice in that suit which i borrowed for my catwalk,
nurul hannahnahnah in the sweet baju kebaya,
hakim in the hot (literally) suit,
shamsydar ani in a cutesy pose,
andydandy looking very manly despite the weave,
izzati giving hannah a run for her money being the sweetest one in the picture (lol),
nuriman looking like he's going to a country club in that blazer and the last one's
me.
adam is not in th picture because he's the cameraman! who of course, takes the greatest pictures. thanks to adam, we all look fab!
hubba hubba! hot mamas in the house! in this case a muddy field. lol. dont get me started on all the wide-eyed passerbys we startled. i wonder. who's idea was it to pose at the muddy field. guilty one, own up!!
that ridiculous person in the mechanic mask and frying pan would be ryan and the one next to him would be zhi hou. i dont even know why he was there but hey, i dont care. the more temasekians, the better!
the usual suspects. my gurls. im glad we solve the matter. and thanks hannah for the sms. i still keep it and i hold you to that wedding speech of yours.
see the lovely ladies up front wearing green? that aisyah manab, me, hannah, nani, nuri and izzati. hakim's at the back promoting the free gift memo book in a miniscule bag and andy's beside aisyah looking blankly at the camera. ape nih.
and so my darlings. that concludes the photo montage for the evening. a goodbye kiss from andy and me.
MUACKS! =)
Sunday, December 03, 2006/12:46 am
that guy at katrina
i should take hannah's advice and stop emo-ing. well you cant blame me. i was bored out of my brains and practically rotting at home. yes, i know. i lead such a dreary life. but not today i dont. because today i was a natural housewife. i did all the house chores, played sims2 and still go out shopping with my mum, whichcomes to the topic at hand.
that guy at katrina.
totally reminds me of diego luna from dirty dancing:havana nights. and his hairstyle. like gus carr from bring it on:all or nothing. he's so geeky cute and im falling!! eh hem. i shall stop drooling now or i'd put a baby to shame. but seriously, he's geeky cute and if he's singaporean, he'd be mod. mods are hot but totaly untouchable of course. because when you date a mod, he overshadows you cuz he'll hog the limelight 24/7. and where does that put you? sitting at the edge of the group sipping coffee in a kopitiam in the middle of nowhere. i rest my case. mods are a no-no. which leaves katrina-guy totally right for me. sigh. if only he wasnt so old. and has a stud. but he totally smiled at me. *swoons*
grad night was boring. or have i said that already?well, it wasnt totally boring boring but dull. except the end when everybody became cam-whores. i should put up pictures. i would have if adam hadnt taken so long to convert the damn files and put them in my thumb drive like ive asked him to a week ago! sheesh! so guess what? i've forced him to meet me at his busstop at 10am today. i want them pictures!
ps: abg opit finally found friendster and guess who made friends with me after he did? kak maz! so unexpected. and she became one helluva hot mama. who said wild single life ended when you get married? =S
Saturday, November 25, 2006/10:09 pm
its the 25th of november so that means a week have already gone by since the last olevel paper.
and i still have not found a job. so far i've only applied for golden village and IKEA and so far not even a single reply from either.
are there too many people finding jobs out there or is it just me?and i still have no idea what to write for my resume/portfolio. i've not organize any major event however i have participated in some but how can i use that to my advantage? and im such a mediocre canoeist. no seriously. i have achieved so little in my 4 yrs in temasek. no leadership position in anything although i really wanted to be a psl throughout the whole 4 yrs but nobody gave me a chance. but, instead of feeling bitter about it i'd just look on the bright side of things and am relief to say that i didnt have to work under sham in organizing major events. lol. im kidding. but she can be a very garang person if she wants to. not that i cant be one myself.
these few days have been a big blurry journey but i have enjoyed myself so much that once i stop and try to relax, i find that my whole body was aching. heck, i even slept on the shuttle bus back to tamps from IKEA. im just sitting crossed leg on my bed right now flipping throught my testimonial and achievement list. absolutely nothing to brag about except that i've completed 120 hours of cip, a2 for cca and gold for napfa. big freaking deal. its all so
boring, boring, BORING.talk about being the jack of all trades but master of none.HOWEVER; i'll try to stop being such a mood killer because..the photos from the studio came out absolutely fucking fantastic! ive already printed out my 2 pictures in 4R from the sony express machine and me, nani and adam look so sophisticated and well, HOT. i cant wait to show it off. lol. well, ive got to go now. tomorrow would be miss yati's wedding lunch and i would be at johor for the canoeing resort trip till wednesday; and i would be volunteering for child aid on wednesday and thursday night . im so excited!!!!! :)
thats me of course. i look like i cant stand straight. lol. i kind of prefer my studio shots. too bad i could only take 2 home in a cd with me. i'll post the studio picture up one day.
dont you just love this picture. by the way the 'grafitti' in the background reads "not yours to rule ours!".. whatever that means. the actual graffiti background we wanted to pose with was "my body is a machine". the place was too far, we didnt have much time to get to school and it was going to pour. well, it actually did when we were taking another shot. didnt want to put it up because it looked like i was scandaling with nuriman. yikes.
now this is more like it. from the left to the right we have: nani, the hot mama in a bareback dress, zia looking nice in that suit which i borrowed for my catwalk, nurul hannahnahnah in the sweet baju kebaya, hakim in the hot (literally) suit, shamsydar ani in a cutesy pose, andydandy looking very manly despite the weave, izzati giving hannah a run for her money being the sweetest one in the picture (lol), nuriman looking like he's going to a country club in that blazer and the last one's me. adam is not in th picture because he's the cameraman! who of course, takes the greatest pictures. thanks to adam, we all look fab!
hubba hubba! hot mamas in the house! in this case a muddy field. lol. dont get me started on all the wide-eyed passerbys we startled. i wonder. who's idea was it to pose at the muddy field. guilty one, own up!!
that ridiculous person in the mechanic mask and frying pan would be ryan and the one next to him would be zhi hou. i dont even know why he was there but hey, i dont care. the more temasekians, the better!
the usual suspects. my gurls. im glad we solve the matter. and thanks hannah for the sms. i still keep it and i hold you to that wedding speech of yours.
basically, a narcissis.